Proverbs 3:5-6

"Trust in the Lord with ALL your heart, and lean not on your own understanding. In ALL your ways acknowledge Him and He shall direct your path!" 

This verse came up a few different times in the past couple of days before I left for Bible College. And as I thought about it more, I realized how perfect this verse is for my life right now. It's as I mentioned in my previous post….the Lord is taking me out of my comfort zone so all I will have is HIM to lean on…… NOT my own understanding. I'm beginning to learn what it means to trust in the LORD with ALL of my heart. Notice the verse does not say, "Trust in the Lord with SOME of your heart." No…. It says ALL. And this is what I am learning to do. God doesn't want us to be on the fence about trusting in Him. We need to be ALL in or nothing.

 I'm beginning to realize, I've been trusting God with some things in my life…. but not all!! I'm still concerned and confused about how certain situations in my life will turn out….in my head, it doesn't make sense. But that's the beauty of trusting God in ALL aspects of my life…. because He will direct my path!! And I don't have to try to figure it out by leaning on my own understanding. 

 I will admit, it's much easier said then done, but I'm definitely willing to work on it more. I pray the Lord will continue to show me what it means to be leaning on Him totally and completely. 

Anyways…. so… now for the little update. Yesterday I left for Bible College. It was probably one of the hardest and biggest steps I've ever had to make. I really hated having to say "goodbye" to all the people I have fallen in love with back home!! I feel like I left half of my heart there. Everyone made it so difficult to leave by overwhelming me with various different blessings!! (For those of you who blessed me with words, gifts, and your prayers…… you know who you are…. I just want to say thank-you so so much! You don't even realize how much everything meant to me. Thank-you!!!) Having to say goodbye, get in that car and drive away was more difficult than I expected. It seemed to all catch up with me as the car door shut…..  a wave of emotion hit me. 

We finally got on the road and with each mile we drove, my heart got heavier and heavier.  I kept thinking to myself, "God, what am I doing?"…… even though the Lord has made it more than obvious, that this is where He wants me….. I still feel like I need a daily reminder. God is so amazing for being so patient with me as I ask over and over…. "Lord, why are you leading me to Bible College?" He softly answers me, "I have a plan for you….. Trust Me."  

We arrived at the campus about 6:00 Monday evening. As we walked around the beautiful campus I tried to comprehend the overwhelming feeling of actually being here and accept the fact that this will be my new home for the next 13 weeks! There was just so much running through my head! I couldn't believe I was actually about to move into a dorm 7 hours away from home. 

This morning I work up early and made it back on campus in time to stand in line for a couple hours to get my dorm key, school ID, and the semester t-shirt. I even met one of my roommates in line! Pretty awesome how God puts things together =]!! After being here for a while and getting all settled into my room, meeting my roommates (who are all so wonderful already!!!) and walking around the campus for a while…… the excitement finally began to set in!! There's just something about this place that is so peaceful and encouraging! It's like a spiritual high right as you walk onto the campus. I can just feel the difference being here….. feels the way it should be everywhere. People are so joyful and friendly, willing to take some time and pray with you and encourage you, it feels so sincere!! I love just walking by and hearing people talk about the Lord, or seeing people pray together! It's just too bad you have to go to a Bible College to see/hear it…. should be like this wherever God's children are!

I have already begun to see the Lord's hand working and putting things together! Just some little things here and there…. for an example…. I had mentioned to one of my friends back home it would be so cool if one of my roommates was my size and hight. Then, the 1st roommate I met, was exactly the same hight as me!! I don't think that was just "coincidence"…… But anyways…. it's just been little things like that. I just feel like God is speaking through those small moments saying to me, "See? I've got this all planned out for you Taylor." 

Then the moment came where I had to say goodbye to my parents and my good friend who had come along to drop us off. Again, it was so difficult…. like a repeat of the day before. Them leaving as I stayed behind really set it all in for me. 

So here I am now….. sitting in my dorm room…. both excited and sad. I just have to force myself not to think about everyone back home… but stay focused on the wonderful plan God has for me!! For that, I am totally thrilled! I can't WAIT to see what the Lord is going to do this semester and whatever it is, I know it's going to be so good!! Difficult…. but so worth it!! I know I'm about to be changed in a way I never have been before. So for that….. I am so excited and thankful to be here!