Drop the Pen



Well, now that's its been almost a year… I suppose it's about time for me to post again. Time just flies by doesn't it? So much has happened since the last time I wrote, I'm not even sure where to start. I met my amazing future husband, we are happily engaged, I graduated from the Bible College, and now I'm here in Montana wedding planning, working, and preparing for the move to Florida coming up in about a month. Amazing how life turns on a dime, hu? 

If you would have told me a year ago, that I would meet a guy in my third semester, start dating only three weeks later, fall in love in a month, be engaged six months after that, and be living in Montana, I would have laughed hysterically and argued that no one can fall in love that fast. That's just ridiculous, infatuation, fairytale nonsense. And yet here I am….. with a beautiful ring shining proudly on my left hand, and a strong man of God, whom I love, by my side. We haven't even known each other a year yet! How could this happen? 
I'll admit, I used to be very cynical about fast paced relationships. I thought people were silly, immature, impatient and flat out desperate when they threw themselves into relationships after only knowing someone for three weeks. 
"Slow doooooown! If that's the person you're supposed to be with… you have a lifetime with them!" I used to say….. 

Well, God has a sense of humor…… 

Isn't it ironic when the Lord puts you in the same situation you were so quick to judge others for?…… Funny how it suddenly doesn't look so bad once you're living it. 

Entering into my third semester at the Bible College, I definitely had no intention to date, nor was I interested in a romantic or serious relationship. It just seemed so cliche at the "Bridal" College…. and I was determined it wouldn't happen to me. I joked with my friends that I would go find my future husband, walk around the lake three times, and live happily ever after, but never actually believed it…. turns out, the jokes on me! 
I've heard it said so many times that when you're not looking for it, that's when it'll happen. It's amazing what happens when you stop trying to make things happen on your own ability, and instead, allow the Lord to take control. (I know… crazy concept right?) I have found, from personal experience, the best and most beautiful moments happen when you're not trying to make them happen; When you willingly drop the pen and allow the Lord to write. As I have written before; these past two years of my life, the Lord has taken all my plans and replaced them with His. I never imagined I would be standing in the place I am in right now. But you know what? the Lord's plans are so beyond better then mine ever could be, and I'm thrilled He is in control, and I'm not. I could have never written a story like this! 
Through my relationship with Devan, God has shown me and taught me so much. He opened my eyes to the legalism I held so tightly to, He moved in my heart and showed me the beauty in romance, and He showed me the difference between Him holding the pen and me. Our relationship was definitely not what I expected it to be, but in such an amazing way! God blessed me so deeply by bringing Devan into my life! He used Devan in unexpected ways to grow me, stretch me, teach me, and change me. I'm very thankful for the way the Lord has used my fiancé, Devan, in my life to open my eyes and push me closer to my Lord and Saviour. And it never would have happened if I didn't allow the Lord to take the lead.

My point in writing this, is not to just share a sappy love story, but to encourage all you brothers and sisters, patiently waiting for your future spouse. Don't hold so tightly to your plans, visions, and the way you think your love story or your life story should be written, that you miss out on the incredible, breathtaking adventure God already has written for you. I can almost guarantee that it's not going to be anything you planned or expected it to be. 
For  I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the Lord, 
thoughts of peace and not of evil,
 to give you a future and a hope. 
 ~ Jeremiah 29:11~
“For My thoughts are not your thoughts,
Nor are your ways My ways,” says the Lord.
~Isaiah 55:8~

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