Pen And Paper

Just a random poem I wrote my first semester at the Bible College. I found it again and thought I would share with you all......  so here it is......  ~Nothing Without You~ Oh Lord... where do I start? What am I supposed to do? Here I am again... falling apart.  No matter how hard I try- I fail In every way- I fail My mind is so scattered- I can’t even think, No matter how hard I try I just sink...  I’m so sorry... I don’t listen to you, then get into a mess And turn right back- crying and stressed.  But I never hear you say, “I told you so.” But instead, “Come to Me, child. I love you so.” Lord, Put my mind at ease,  I’m down on my knees I’m just so frustrated- is this what I get for being kind?  Taken advantage of... and left behind?  But why do I care? Why does it hurt?  It’s not like I didn’t know... not like I couldn’t see,  I have no one to blame but me.  I try so hard to ...

If God is such a loving God, why would He put me through such hard trials?..... Is this really God’s doing?...... Is He even there? Did I hear wrong?........ Is He even listening? .......Where is God when I really need Him?........  Endless questions and doubts fill my head..... Why does everything around me seem to be changing and falling apart? Why has God led me here?.... Where are you God?...... “I’m right here.” He calmly whispers in my ear. “I’m carrying you through this... I haven’t forgotten about you... don’t forget about Me.”  It’s so easy to remain happy and joyful when everything is going the way you want it too. It’s easy to thank the Lord when life is awesome. But what do you do when the skies turn dark and it starts raining? It’s our natural response to get angry and bitter at the Lord when situations turn sour and the sunshine hides behind the clouds. Just because it seems inconvenient for you, doesn’t mean it wasn’t put there for a reason. ...

Tagging on to my previous blogs, I would like to pose the question which the title has already made obvious.....What is love? Is it that feeling of your heart leaping in your chest when that “special someone” walks in the room? Those butterflies flying around your head, clouding your thoughts and tying your tongue in knots? Is love that twinkling in your eye when you’re gazing into his or hers?  Unfortunately, this world has yet again tainted something which the Lord intended to be very different. 1 Corinthians 13:4-8 sums it up very well... “Love suffers long and is kind; love does not envy; love does not parade itself, is not puffed up; does not behave rudely, does not seek its own, is not provoked, thinks no evil; does not rejoice in iniquity, but rejoices in the truth; bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. Love never fails.” Looking through this list, it doesn’t say anything about butterflies or twinkling eyes. Instead it speaks o...

Emotional Purity is probably the most difficult to guard against in a relationship because it can be the most subtle. And you may not even realize you’ve crossed lines till it’s too late. You don’t have to cross physical lines to later get your heart broken. Your heart can be engaged in many different ways, and emotional is one of them. I don’t think there is an exact science for this subject, I understand situations may vary and things may be different.... but heres just a few ways I’ve learned to help guard against a painful ending in relationships or friendships.   This part of “The Rose” is rooted in the mind. Which is why it’s so important to control your thoughts. As 2 Cor. 10:5 states to take EVERY thought captive to the obedience of Christ! As I’ve said before, the mind is where the fight begins. If we allow something to consume our minds, and allow ourselves to dwell on it, it can eventually become actions. We can get so wrapped up in thought that it can begin effect...

Over the years, I have been asked many question about my standards and the reason why I’ve chosen to do things the way I have when it comes to relationships. This is a big topic to take on all in one blog, so I decided I would do it in parts. So in the next couple blogs I post, I will do my best to answer the questions people have challenged me with...... One of the biggest questions I have been faced with has to do with my physical relationship. Some people wonder why we don’t kiss, snuggle... etc...... There are several different perspectives on this issue which I have heard from different sources. I’ve heard it said, “If it’s not yours... don’t touch it.” That’s a quick and easy way to sum it up. Ultimately, that person you are with is not yours until there is a ring on your finger. There’s no commitment till you say “I do.” Another way I like to think about it is... if that person’s spouse was there, would you do what you are about to do with that person? Because, until...

A wave crashed up on the shoreline with the sunset glowing on the horizon. It’s warm rays of orange and yellow reflected on the ocean’s water giving it a pure sparkle. A cool breeze rushed through the air carrying the scent of the salty ocean. Picture perfect evening, as if nature was beckoning for people to come and take a long stroll along it’s beach. A young boy took it up on it’s friendly offer as he wondered up and down the  shore. The waves continued to come, splashing he’s feet as he walked. As the water flooded his toes, he felt something else touch him. He looked down and much to his surprise it was a brightly colored starfish which seemed to glow under the clear water. He plucked it out of the water and held it in his hand for a moment. He admired the beauty and thanked the Creator for designing such a wonderful creature. Then, with a soft toss, it plunged back into it’s watery home. The boy went on his way down the beach when he noticed another starfish which had been ...

"From your head to you’re heart.... 18 inches."  I know, I know.... it’s been so long since I’ve gotten to post something. Some of my friends were making comments about how I should post something again. I know this is the usual excuse.... but things have really gotten crazy busy around here lately and I’ve been a bit distracted. BUT... I have had this one written for quite awhile now... just haven’t had a chance to edit it and post it......  so, enough of this rambling and on to the real stuff here...... Something that God has been dealing with me about in my life for the past 2 or 3 years, is taking what I know and putting it to action. It’s no good having all the information but not doing anything about it. Being here at Bible College, I have been gaining a lot of new information. It’s so exciting to hear all these different perspectives on stories and situations I’ve never heard before, but the real test is when I come home from College. Will I just fall ...